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Dont think too much , block those feelings for now . sometimes I just cannot stop the words from falling into my head , there are a lot of thoughts going on – so much to think , so much to wonder about – and thoughts that I should compltely stay away from . ButContinue reading “I think too much.”

Whats changed in the last few moths? A lot , actually. firstly , i dont live in the fairyland- dream factory world of lies and expectations. I know the realitu , I know my potential and I know myself a little better now. Secondly my own understanding of the way my mind works. I knowContinue reading “What Changed?”

Its 4.24 AM , and I a here – not to have some philosphical epiphany – but to find a friend to confide in . Dont get me wrong I have many friends , I also have my parents and I have someone is like my brother – but right now , I just cantContinue reading “Day 1.”

Its 5.41am , on the 13th of july. I am here to finally restart . Nothing else matters anymore , I am starting – I an here to face everything . All the mess, all my mistakes – just everything in general . I am here to tell myself that it will be okay ,Continue reading “I am here .”

I was someone who never really realized the value of the people around me for a very long time . I loved them too, don’t get me wrong – but the fact that these people are responsible for 90 percent of my happiness and mental satisfaction , is something that never really hit me untilContinue reading “GRATEFUL.”

The fear of failure is something that I have always struggled with . Whether it be friendships or academics – I am not afraid to try , I am afraid of being told that I am not good enough to try . Over the years my bar for success has been very predefined – ItContinue reading “NEED.”

Two years ago, when I was basking in the glory of the first achievement of my life, being a very positive person and really liking my life – I thought it was going to be perfect. I thought things made sense. My parents were happy, my friends loved me, academically I was on top ofContinue reading “This is hard.”